Dear God

I got a text first thing this morning. An unexpected hiccup. A change in plans. My sister needs her car back. Her circumstances have changed and now she needs a way to get to work. That makes sense. I told her it would be no problem. Inside, my first instinct was of mild panic. How on earth am I going to find another car to drive in two weeks? I got this message right before Marcail and I walked outside for our last morning-hot-tub excursion our last day in California. In the hot tub, my mind bounced from one idea to another. Maybe I could do This or maybe I could call That Person or maybe I could use my insurance and rent a car or...

Let Go.

It was so clear, somebody might as well have spoken it out loud.

Stop trying to plan and control. Stop worrying.

Let Go.

So I laid my head back on the cement and I prayed. Dear God, I really need a new car. Soon. Please. Somehow, I don't know how. But I need one. Thank you. Amen.

I was a child putting my needs in the hands of my daddy.

It was so simple.

Could it be so simple?

All this time, was this all that I needed to do?

Dear God, please give me the ability to pay down my debts. Please make it possible for me to move to California. This time next year would be good. I would really like that. Thank you. Amen.

Father God, I really want to book some weddings this summer. Please send me brides and grooms with whom I'd be a good fit. I would love to do at least 10 weddings, but you want to bless me with more, I will not complain. I do not want to limit you. Thank you. Amen.

Father, thank you for all the blessings you've given me. Thank you that I got to photograph an engagement shoot on the beach. That was amazing. Thank you for keeping Marcail and I safe. Thank you for all the wonderful people who were so hospitable to us out in California. Thank you for bringing some clarity to my life. Thank you that you want me to be happy. I love you. Thank you for loving me.

Amen