Guess I'm growing up

I just reread through key posts from this blog from the past year and... holy cow. I am in a much different place now than this time last year. This time last year, I was getting ready to move into Aimee and my's place over by the park. I sold a ton of stuff on craigslist. I was working out. Tentatively trying out this church thing. Trying to be an ETL at work. Still struggling with the decision to see the divorce lawyer...

The past 12 months were alternately incredible and difficult. Some of the most difficult. Heck, the past six months have been incredibly difficult. The past three even more so. I keep wanting to simplify my life, clean it up, put it in a box and label it and everything in it so to be classified and easily referenced. But you know what?

Life is messy.

And sometimes your 17 year old roommate winds up living with your ex husband.

And sometimes you are offered incredibly awesome sounding opportunities that don't pan out.

But sometimes they do... just 5 months after you initially wanted it...

And sometimes I need to stay where I am when everything within me wants my own place again.

And sometimes you wind up doing things you said you'd never do (in a good way)

And... ditto (in a bad way)

And sometimes people hurt you
or surprise you
And sometimes relationships change
and dissolve
or grow in a completely different direction.

And sometimes people you have written off completely come back in to your life
and spin it around completely. . .
and you make that choice to push them back away. . .

And sometimes what you thought would be good isn't.

And sometimes God shows up in the strangest places. . .