I woke up at 4:30 this morning and couldn't quite fall back asleep. My soul was restless. Remember when I posted some time before that everything changes? That I was going to hold onto this time while I had it? Well, that change is swift approaching and my heart is not ready for it. I don't think I'd ever be ready for it. One week. Two. One month. Two. My life will be completely different than it is now. I'm not ready. Can I let go? Can I give up those things and those people that God has given me to sustain me through these dark few months? Can I truly go it alone?
Guess I'm going to have to. So now I need to begin making the choices that will pave my path for the next year and on. They are decisions I realized yesterday that I will have to begin making on my own. And I will give recognition where it is due and I do know that the path I find myself on is a result of God's provision these past six months. That those things and people are being slowly stripped from me show that obviously, God thinks I'm ready.
Oh man. I do not.
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