In ten days I put down a deposit on an apartment, I got out of my lease and I finalized plans for the big D and we're both okay with being friends and moving on...
In ten days, two of my friends will no longer work with me. Our six is now four and our four just two. And who knows how long even that will last?
In ten days, I got to play quasi-LOD and although the night was crazy, it was also solidifying. Yep. I can do that. Bring it on.
In the past ten days, the weather went from 80 degrees to Snowpocalypse pt 3. I went from having dinner with friends on Wednesday to a beautiful hotel room in Crown Center on Thursday. I got my first massage and got to tan some and work out in one of the most amazing hotel gyms I've ever seen. I got to hang out with my mom, just her and me, for the first time in a very, very long time. I got to process through some life with her and get her input on some of the things I've struggled with. She made me feel less alone.
I watched a movie on Imax 3D. I stepped foot inside the planetarium. I ate amazing food for three days.
What I probably enjoyed most about hanging out with Mom were our conversations. She's always been a good friend to me and it was finally nice to be honest about some things, about some of my struggles, the things I'm still up against. How I never wanted to be a divorcee. How I got married way too young. How I am always drawn to the dreamers and the artists and she was too but that's why she was always burned. How we are both strong, crazy women and good luck to me finding someone that will put up with me... haha. But seriously. I've been told I just need to find a nice engineer and settle down. But I don't think I would know what to talk about to some solid, (boring), financially secure man...
I've discovered that I have friends who will support me and love me... even when I don't always make the best life choices.
In ten days, I took one step closer to the light. The sun is just now beginning to dawn. . . it will be interesting to see what the morning will reveal. I hope I'm ready for it.
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