What do I want?

I sat in a Jeep outside my apartment for a while last night. I was discussing relationships with a friend of mine. He is a guy. We are friends.

I have had enough guy friends to know when this conversation should occur.

I am not ready for a relationship.

I am still discovering myself
and what I want
and who I am.

I have a lot of guy friends. I work out with them. I eat Chipotle with them. I hang out with them. I rock climb with them.

They push me. They show me a different side of things. They open up courses of action, they spur me on, they confront me and encourage me. They say, yeah! Let's Do That! They invite me over for steak dinner. They invite me out to the dog park. They invite me out with their girl friends. I invite them out to adventure. . .

I am moving in with a guy friend.

He has a large TV and several guitars and is very nearly as crazy as I am (that's why we get along so well)...

Tonight I told him about my rock climbing adventure from last night and my words were something like "I still can't really feel my arms, but it was so worth it!" and he said, 'yeah! we need to do that! Let me tell so and so and so and so and that sounds awesome!'

Yeah.

That's about sums it up right there.