I've been thinking a lot lately about the value of airing out life while online in the form of facebook/blogs/etc.
And yet here I am blogging about it. Irony.
But the thing is, I am a writer. Always have been in one form or another. Whether it's writing obscenely long fiction at the age of 16 (try 60-pages size 10 font single spaced. . .) or journaling or my various blogs throughout the years. . . and who is a musician but somebody who enjoys music and wants to share? And an artist who creates in order to showcase? And who is a writer but one who likes to put words down and then gives them as a gift to the world. In all cases, it's evident we are all narcissistic people. Haha.
In general, I'm not the person who likes to get really deep with relative strangers. There are few I trust with the entire truth of my heart. That's probably why I mostly blog about running and music.
Speaking of running and music, last Tuesday I made two of the best purchases I've made in a long time. I bought a pair of Asics trail runners and I also bought the new Mumford & Son's CD. I lost the CD over the past few days but refound it just yesterday. I'd been listening to it on Spotify, but the CD I bought has several extra songs included. . . . one of which is The Boxer (originally Simon & Garfunkle-- and also, as some of you know, one of my all time favorite songs ever). I was really nervous listening to the Son's version and it was different-- can't really sing along and difficult to harmonize with-- but it still blowed my mind. Listened to it about four times back to back to back. . . I discussed this with my dad this morning in probably one of the best conversations he and I have ever had. It had all the classic markings of our usual father/daughter conversations: sitting around the kitchen table drinking coffee. . . but then he pulled out his new Iphone which made me get out my phone and I opened spotify and we listened to Brandi Carlyle and the Son's new CD and we went from there. . .
Nothing like music to bring people together.
But, seriously, I count myself lucky to have found several really solid albums in the past month or so. It so rarely happens, it's like finding a great surprise. And I can really be such an internal person, music has always helped me connect and find expression in what I can usually not articulate well. If somebody asked me how my day went, I wish I could just pull out my ipod and play them a song and that would be their answer. It's like that. Even as I write, I need something moving my soul along.
I guess that's also why music has been so essential to me this past week and it was music that helped my resolution. God knew what he was doing when He led me to buy that CD last Tuesday. Nothing else has been able to minister to my heart the same way.
Boy, Barb, you're probably saying, that's a lot of credit to give some secular group.
Oh, sure, credit is always due to many different things. But God has always used music in my life to direct change, to express my passions and to heal. I thank Him for that. Music combined with a good run often frees up my mind enough to go where it needs to and process what is necessary.
And here I do feel the need to post something although I always hate it when people post lyrics in facebooks/blogs because what are lyrics without the music? But here we go:
Now I'll be bold as well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh, and fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies....
-I Will Wait...
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