My 30th

On the last evening of my 29th year, I'll tell you what. I am crazy. But I made a good choice tonight. I made the choice to go to my house. Went out and came back.

If that sounds normal to you, perhaps you haven't lived a life like mine lately. When I leave my back door, I'm never quite sure when I'll be home. . .

That's perhaps a slight exaggeration. Perhaps.

After this past weekend, I had some soul searching. Who am I? What do I want? What does God have in store for me? And most importantly, What in the blanketyblank am I doing with my self? Self, what are you doing??

What do I want?

What on Earth do I want?

I'll tell you right now, I have a made up mind on some things and on others, I'm consistently swayed.

Thank God for the people He has placed in my life at this time. Thank you, God, for those voices of Reason. For those Good Influences if I myself remain a bad one at times. Thanks for giving me people I can count on.... even if they frustrate the hell out of me sometimes. Thank you for giving me friends who forgive my crazy. My weakness. My damnitalltohell attitude. . .

Like a sheep to the slaughter. . .

Thanks, guys. You know who you are.